What's Next?

We're staying at my sister's for a short amount of time.  She has another family moving into this house soon.  It's nice to have a spot for a little while.  I am grateful.

I have options... my mom has welcomed me back to Kansas to stay.  I am not so fond of Kansas and I believe my mom and I have a better relationship when we have some distance between us.  She would be helpful with these babies, but not so sure it would be healthy for them... or me.

My dad has offered to give me part of my inheritance now.  I'm not sure how I feel about even talking out loud about his passing.  I have tried to stay open which allows him to talk about it and feel comfortable with it, but he's my daddy and I will miss him so much.  He wants me to buy something... like a mobile home.  Or put a down payment on a lease with option in Colorado.  My dad feels I really need some stability - and he's right!  I would love that right about now.  He really thinks it would be detrimental if I was to go to Kansas.  I value his opinion, but really wish I didn't need help to get settled.  My dad has been an apartment manager most of his life and has just been really good about saving.  Now he's retired and he doesn't think he will live much longer.  He told me yesterday that my grandfather at the age of 86 is in better health than he is at the age of 63.  I told him I would look into buying, but really hope to find another way.  I don't want to use that money.  I'd love for him to hold onto it for now.  He may need it someday.

We'll see what is to come.  I was able to take my girls to their old school for a visit today.  They loved it! They are staying with a friend and will attend school again tomorrow.  They are hoping I find a home in the area of their old school.  Their teachers are SO excited and really wanting them back and are looking for housing for us, too.  That whole community has already welcomed us back.  I love all of them.  Such sweet, caring and loving people.

It always works out.  Sometimes I forget when I am in the middle of it and can't seem to pull myself to the outside of it and look in.

We're more than okay and life is good.

Still have a suspended license and have to get an SR22 before I can reinstate my license... but I really feel like there is a way to contest it.  I just haven't found the path yet.  That too will work out... I believe it will.