Just don't know how this works daily and some days are more challenging then others, but overall I know we're always more than taken care of and all is well. I feel loved and when I start to feel alone in the world, I can quickly remind myself I am not.
These last few months have been super challenging. For some reason, I kept thinking that soon everything was going to smooth out. Now, I'm not surprised when new challenges pop out of no where... one after another. ;) I am not surprised when we have to move again, or when my cell phone gets put into some water, toothpaste and salt because one of my sweet boys is curious and creative.
Ya know, I have tried to write three times in the last two days. So much has happened over the last 3-6 months, I am not even sure where to start. All I know at this point is, I love my kiddos, love life, am okay with the "set backs" and challenges, and I'm always ready for more and gotta stop being surprised by anything that comes my way. I am also very blessed, too. SO many earth angels in my life along this journey and I am getting the life lessons that I need so I may grow and expand.
Maybe I should start with some lessons I have learned.... I know my budgeting needs some focus and clarity. I know I have a tendency to withdraw from situations and people in my life very quickly. In the future, I will work on that... when I feel like withdrawing, I will take another route. I will think about how important the relationship is, if I really want this relationship in my life and what role it plays, and just think about the bigger picture before jumping to conclusions. My withdraw issues are related to insecurities and not feeling protected in a relationship (friend, boyfriend, family, etc.). I don't like being judged... but will work on not worrying too much about that. I have learned a LOT about me through this and I have a feeling I am so far from "done." ;)
Well, world... this warrior mama is not giving up. I'm just not... it's not in me. I love these babies, love life and it's on! Bring it. I am here to help change the world for the better, love and guide my beautiful little beings, laugh a lot, stay positive, and spread love.
For all of those that have not been able to bring themselves outside of their suffering, I send love, light, blessings... all with an equality and a genuine, sincere energy.
For me, when I am not able to bring myself out of my suffering.... I send the same.
I got this... and I'm not alone.
No comments:
Post a Comment