filing in two days and already moving on....

when i kicked out my husband of twelve years.... i put it out there.  i told the universe what i wanted.  i wanted a big, beautiful dark skinned man to love me, take care of me, empower me, help me grow, be a strength for me.  i met someone.  whether this is him is still to be determined.... but he is a big, beautiful dark skinned man who is loving on me.  when i put it out there, i let it go.  i wrote it down, talked about it and then let it go. 

when i was faced with kissing on someone else, or letting him touch me, i thought it would be much harder to allow.  i didn't resist much.  i've found someone i am comfortable with and feel good around.  i definitely don't go around kissing just anyone... i'm a lil picky.  

maybe i should feel guilty, maybe i should be sorry, but i'm not.  i'm sorry this has hurt my lover of 12 years, but i'm not sorry for my actions.  i'm okay with where i'm at.  

who knows what will come of this new friendship, but i'm loving it for now.  it feels good.

peace,

jenae