Up, Up.... Here We Go

I had the most fabulous weekend!

It all started on Friday, early evening.... around 4:30ish. My ex had decided to come by for a visit and while he was here, he took a look at my resume and offered to "fix" it. I was good with that, knowing he has the corporate background and experience with resumes. He also helped me with a cover letter... a very boring cover letter. Yet, it seems that is what all of the companies are looking for. I am grateful to him for helping me out.

As I got bored looking for "Help Wanted" ads, I decided to check out some schools for Ayurveda. I got on Google and typed it in.

I found one tucked away up here in the beautiful Rocky Mountains. It ended up only being about 25 minutes from my home. Not that I have the money, but I do have the dream, so I called the number on my screen.

I spoke with a woman named Dona.... yes, that is how she spells it. ;) She was amazing.... super friendly, positive, upbeat, and just lovely. She told me about the different programs and that one was starting that night at 6pm. That was only in 1 1/2 hours from the time when we first spoke. The program was for Yoga certification... that would mean I could get certified to be a Yoga Teacher. That is just the beginning of many courses that could lead me to my Ayurvedic Practitioner Degree.

My heart was beating and I was soaring! I couldn't help but to think.... 'Wow, my ex just happens to be here right now. He could stay at my house for the weekend and watch the kiddos. I could swap him cars so he has enough room for all of them in case he needs to go somewhere. This is my dream coming true!'

So the program was only $3000 and I could make payments.... hmmmm. I haven't even paid my small amount of rent, how could I come up with any of that? I had $0 to my name. Dona was super willing to work with me, but I just couldn't wrap my head around the "how." How was I going to come up with a deposit? I didn't know, but I knew it was going to work out somehow.... it just had to. This particular school doesn't have a student loan program either.

Their Yoga Certification course requires me to be gone for one weekend a month and every Wednesday night until June. That would be feasible. It sounded great for my schedule. I really felt that the kids could hang with me being absent for that period of time. I also felt as if it's not asking so much of my ex to watch them during my classes.

I got off the phone and decided to jump in a nice, hot bath and let it go. I had to put it out there and stop being worried about it. I was still searching for ways to make this happen, but at the same time trying to 'just know' if it was meant to be, it would happen. I got out of the tub, saddened and bummed. So, I decided to clean the kitchen and get dinner started. I was thinking that maybe I'd catch the next course.

The phone rang around 5:30pm and it was Dona! She said she had never felt this way and usually doesn't say things like this, but that she felt I should come anyway. She said maybe I could get the money thing together after the weekend.

I couldn't even keep it together... I was extremely excited! I talked to my ex, my kiddos and then packed my bags and ran out the door!

My Tiana (11) said, "Way to go, Mom! You did it! You manifested it!"

My Jayden (9) was sad. She hadn't been feeling good and just wanted Mom. We had a great talk and she was bummed, but excited for me. She knew this was for all of us, not just Mom.

My boys were good with it... Dad was around. They were excited to spend time with him. Even though Keenan is not quite two, and doesn't quite speak... I had a feeling he was even okay with it. I told him good-bye for now and he was sad for a moment.

I was going to a Yoga weekend, training... can you believe it?!? I was headed to a retreat! A spa weekend, learning about what I love (Ayurveda and Yoga) and getting that me time in that was SO needed.

I learned an incredible amount of knowledge. I learned about Human Anatomy... unlike any high school lesson. I learned the history and geography of Yoga. I learned of the connection between Ayurveda and Yoga. I did Yoga 4 hours a day, meditation, relaxation, Pranayamas... all while being surrounded by beautiful, loving, compassionate beings.

So, now is Monday and I'm on a high. I still haven't figured out how to pay for the schooling, so I'm not sure if I will be able to continue.... but I do have an amazing feeling that this may just work out.

There is an Ayurveda I course starting in two weeks and a PanchaKarma course starting shorting there-after.... and a Yoga Therapy course in the summer along with Famliy Ayurveda. I want it all. I am ready for all of that and the rest of their courses. I am going to be an Ayurvedic Practitioner. This all costs money. Each course is additional... and the books that go along with the courses... and whatever other costs are associated with schooling.

I am not sure how this will pull together... but I sure do feel good about it.

Universe... please. I am ready to commit.

Oh, I didn't get the Ayurveda office job. No worries, I guess it wasn't meant for me. I have been applying to other "Wellness" jobs. We'll see what comes out of that.

My ex DID get a job!!! Yay, he is finally employed! He starts on Feb. 21st. He's back doing computer help desk stuff. I am excited for him and excited for me and the kiddos. We will now be getting some good child support and just maybe my ex will get situated and continue to be in the kid's lives consistently..... no expectations, though. Just wishful thinking. ;)