So, I am checkin' my email the other night and received an email from a psychic/clairvoyant that I had a free report from about a month ago. She gave me a sample report and of course sends me updates periodically hoping I will pay for a full report.
I noticed the word "clairvoyant" and decided to google it. I just wanted to learn more behind the meaning of it.
Clairvoyance and Clairaudience are readily understood and accepted terms of reference for the abilities to "See" and "Hear" in a metaphysical sense. The word "sentient" literally means "feeling" with dictionary reference stating(sen-tee-ent) adj. capable of feeling - sentience.
Clairsentience, is the ability to feel the emotions of other people. While it's not to be confused with empathy but to some degree both Empathic and Clairsentient Beings have the ability to become a vehicle or dumping ground for unwanted emotions belonging to other people.
An intuitive empath, is a special individual who has advanced powers of emotional, mental, spiritual and overall energetic sensitivity. Empaths are highly intuitive which means they tend to do things by feeling, by sensing, by reacting to queues, and by following "hunches, gut-feelings," etc. AKA, "highly sensitive and/or emotional" beings.
I have always had people in my life that have felt comfortable enough to tell me their problems, issues and/or hopes and dreams. I've always enjoyed sharing inspiration and positive words. Just thinking that is normal... doesn't everyone share with everyone?
Since I was little, I have been able to "feel" other people.... their true feelings show right through their surface. If someone is telling a lie... I know, I feel it. If someone is hurting, or their spirit is "broken," I can feel their pain. When someone is angry, I all of the sudden feel angry.... the same with sadness, hopelessness, and every emotion. This is where the disconnect has come into play and has been useful.
I can even feel the future at times. I have felt when someone is going to get pregnant, or break up with their partner.... even without "knowing" or being told they were having issues.
At times, I can also feel other's physical pain. If I am around someone who is ill, feeling lethargic, having a cramp, or pain in an organ, etc..... I can feel it! I feel the same pain in my body. I believe it also happens when I'm not around someone.... I can be far away and feel their pain. I thought I was crazy. It happened once, I didn't think much of it. It continues to happen... I've just been ignoring it, not knowing how to process it.
Sometimes I just "know." It's hard for me to express that to others without sounding egotistical. And sometimes I am wrong.... if my emotions run high and I'm not paying attention, I can be wrong.
As a child, I learned to disconnect. I can completely disconnect from someone and/or a situation. I can walk away from a friend, boyfriend, family member, stranger, any situation and not take any negative emotions or feelings with me, not all of the time, but most of the time. I can really just let it go and disconnect. I have used that throughout my life as a defense mechanism. I thought it was related to moving all of the time and not getting attached to anyone because I knew they wouldn't be around long.... maybe that was part of it? I just thought it was some emotional thing I was supposed to work on and "fix."
I remember watching my mother purposely hit her head against a brick wall in agony over her boyfriend. I must have been around 10. My mother was/is a pharmaceutical addict. As I walked onto the porch, I remember saying, "Mama, I am going to take JoJo for a walk." JoJo was my Shihtzu... my dog. I didn't look at her for more than a second as I spoke and walked past. I left and spent the day walking my dog around. I don't remember any negative emotions... just that I had to leave her to herself.
Now, I don't remember the majority of my childhood... just random moments. I don't remember anything before the age of 7. I thought that was normal, too. I didn't think anyone really remembered much of their childhood.... until I was older and found many friends and family members that could remember most of their childhood. Wow, what is wrong with me? Why can I not remember?
After reading more on the Clairsentient and Empath Being, I realize "disconnecting" was a super healthy thing for me to do. That way I wasn't bearing the burdens of those around me... that was my self preservation technique.
I didn't disconnect ALL the time. I don't know what made me do that sometimes and not others?
I remember being at work when Tiana was one.... 10 years ago. I had heard through co-workers about a little girl (nobody I knew) who had meningitis and was in intensive care. I think she was 7. I immediately started crying and couldn't sleep for days. I would just cry uncontrollably and could feel this girl's pain. I remember talking to a mentor of mine and trying to understand why I was so upset. About three days later, I was calm again. I don't know the outcome of this little girl's illness, but there was a feeling of peace within me.
It's nice to be comforted by the thought of these feelings and emotions being a gift. I want to learn more and find out how to channel this into a healthy, beneficial mode of healing.... for myself and others.
Kundalini, spiritual awakening..... this is all tied in together. Loving the feeling of "waking" up. Feeling so blessed.
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