A Millionaire Mind... I Say YES to Success!

I attended an AMAZING seminar last weekend! It was ALL day on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It was the Millionaire Mind Intensive in Denver.

I first read The Secrets of The Millionaire Mind by T. Harv Ecker back at the end of 2007. It was at the end of my marriage, but before I knew I was getting a divorce. I found the book at a thrift store, or someone gave it to me... I don't remember. I saw the movie The Secret around the same time.

We lived in a really icky, gross, small house (it had three layers of flooring that had been there for years!) and drove an old car that didn't even fit the family properly. We sat on top of eachother and didn't have enough seatbelts for everyone. We lived right behind a couple of bars, where my ex would visit often. I enjoyed the location because the kiddos and I could walk to the Co-op, the park, the reservoir and the market. It was right in the middle of a beautiful, mountain town.

Needless to say, after reading the book and watching the movie, I placed bright colored sticky notes all over the house. They had affirmations on them, goals and dreams for the family, and everything positive you can imagine.

I ended up leaving my husband about four months later. We weren't on the same path and didn't want the same things for our family. No worries, it is all working out beautifully! ;)

Here it is 2010 and the gentleman that wrote the book, held a seminar here in Denver this last weekend! I was going.... no matter what it took, I was going to be there.

So, Thursday night I packed up the crew and headed to my Dad's house. He lives about five minutes from where the seminar was being held. My dad didn't know about the seminar until that evening when I told him I wanted to go.

The kids had just gotten over chicken pox, my three-year-old had a cold, and Tiana ended up puking that night. I had a feeling it would just be a quick virus or she ate something that upset her tummy. At this point, I gave it to the universe... I decided that if I was meant to go to the seminar, everyone would sleep well and we'd get up and go. If anyone was up during the night, due to illness, we probably wouldn't make it.

The kids slept well, and I woke them up at 6:30a.m. We all got dressed, got our "to-do" bags, packed the cooler with food, and headed to the seminar. Yep, ALL of us. ;)

I didn't know if they would allow kids (especially 5!) into the seminar, or if they'd send us away. My thought was, the worse that could happen is they would say NO and we'd leave.

The best that could have happened, DID happen! They welcomed us with open arms. The event staff was amazing! They let me attend for free and allowed the kids to be there. They were so supportive and helpful. One of the guys made the kids their own name tags and interacted with them often. The whole staff was very attentive and loving towards me and my crew. I am/was soooo grateful.

The kids were with me part of the time and the other part of the time it worked out that they stayed at my dad's house. I don't usually have my dad watch my kids, but it really worked out beautifully. My dad was great and my kids were great! And I completed the seminar!

Whatever it takes....

I learned so much and took so many steps towards releasing negative blocks about money! I learned that I have/HAD a lack of respect for money. There were some therapeutic exercises that allowed me to dig deep and pull up and out negative emotions... and then release them!

Not only did it have to do with money, it was related to my parents, my ex and just icky, stuck emotions and ideas I was holding onto. What a healing weekend! I had no idea I even had any of those negative emotions inside of me. I feel lighter.

So, Friday I also had surgery on my left leg at 2pm in the afternoon. I had to leave the seminar and head to meet my dad (he took the kids), then I went back to the seminar around 5pm. It was an outpatient, laser surgery for varicose veins.... they went in with a catheter and then slid the laser into the catheter and "zapped" the veins.

Ya know, I have a respect for Western Medicine that I didn't have prior to this series of surgeries on my vein system.

I had surgery on my pelvis about three to four weeks ago for the same thing, just in my pelvis. No laser that time, they coiled the broken veins. They went in through my neck with a catheter and traveled down to my pelvis with tools and a tiny camera. There were five, big flat screens that the doctor watched as she did this procedure. AMAZING! I walked out of the surgery, went to dinner with my dad (Pho!) and drove home that night, resuming my daily mother activities the following day. They wrote me two prescriptions, one intense IBProfen, the other a narcotic.... I didn't fill either one and ended up ripping them and throwing them in the trash. I didn't need them. I felt good.

I have one more surgery scheduled for the 13th of December on my right leg. The veins aren't bad, just need fixed so they don't get worse. They are a result of having so many babies. Since I'm done having babies, this is the perfect time and procedure for me. I am grateful for Western Medicine... it has it's place.

Anyway, Friday about 1/2 hour after I returned to the seminar, the speaker asked for five future millionaires to step up to the stage... I happened to be right there and ended up being one of the volunteers! I was unaware we were playing "Follow The Leader." This is where, one at a time, we got on stage and danced.... whatever we did, the audience (hundreds of people) repeated our dance moves! Seeing how we were all in tight quarters in the audience, it was really the top half of our bodies dancing. How fun that was and really profound. Whatever I did, hundreds of people were doing.... wow, what a rush. I then got off stage and remembered I just had surgery! So, right out of surgery, I'm on stage DANCING! Ouch.... thank goodness others carry IBProfen. I haven't had that in years, but had to take it. I felt so much better and finished the night with no problems.

What a weekend. I had a blast, learned a lot, met a BUNCH of beautiful people, did some networking, released some negative "stuff" and really grew as a person.

I am now implementing the money management system I learned, creating passive income vessels, and working towards my goal of financial freedom.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. XO

A Personal Portrait

Here is a personal vedic astrology reading.... definitely resonates with me. ;) I had ran a report before, but the dates were incorrect... so my Sun and Ascendant are Sagittarius and my Moon in Leo. (No Scorpio anywhere to be found.)

Sun in Sagittarius, Moon in Leo
Your astrological positions confer upon you a splendid combination. You have a gift for perceiving complex ideas as one concept, for reducing multiple problems to one workable unity. You exude power and energy and are warmed by the attention and admiration of others. Either your passionate or spiritual side will be awakened, lending you the ability to foresee the future. Your affections are boundless, and your heart can go out to many without diffusing your emotions. You are magnanimous and loyal. In whatever area you rest your interest, you will assume a position of leadership. You have a love of luxury and pleasures, leaning at times to self-indulgence. The key to a more harmonious self lies in subduing your imagination and allowing more practical tendencies to flow through your personality.

Ascendant in Sagittarius, Jupiter in the Fourth House At the time of your birth the zodiacal sign of Sagittarius was ascending in the horizon. Its ruler Jupiter is located in the fourth house. Sagittarius rising denotes lives which are very dualistic; situations come and go as if divided into two sides - success and failure. If you are able to raise the interests of your mind from common and trivial things to more profound subjects, your intellect will become very philosophical and attracted by law and peace, and it will be more intuitive than rational. In any case your life will be colored by impulsive and rather stubborn tendencies on your part, creating some inclination to go to extremes. During the course of your existence you must try to develop intuition and human understanding so that you may be in a position to assist other people with your advice. Sagittarius gives you a rather strong love of nature and makes you somewhat extroverted, demonstrative and passionate, falling in love frequently and without reservations. You are an intellectual, an intelligent person who has been fortunate enough to be granted also a good development of the emotional functions. Your romantic life will be intense and varied. Your object of love may find you difficult to understand. In one aspect you will appear as passionate and energetic but because of the mutability of the sign you will also have an opposite tendency that will lead you away from involvement in the love affair and the latter impulse will be caused by a more inner trait, which is personal freedom. Generally speaking, the sign of Sagittarius will incline you to exist in environments in which your physical body, emotions and thoughts are allowed total freedom for development. On a higher intellectual level you may find yourself inclined to dwell in the deep complexities of philosophy, metaphysics, religion and law. You are versatile enough to study more than one discipline simultaneously not forgetting to keep your body in physical movement, since you require both intellectual and physical exercise. The main trends of your life will be oriented, in one way or another, to derive satisfaction from intimate and family environments. This is also indicative of persons who are born with certain inherited privileges. This is a very favorable position for all matters related to inheritance, both financial and biological. Your home should be a happy one, in which interfamily relationships are strikingly favorable and in which there is peace and a harmonious home atmosphere.

Neptune Conjunct Ascendant The conjunction of Neptune to the Ascendant shows that you are very sensitive and perhaps psychic. Your grip on the real world is loose; you need to grasp it more firmly. You are so physically sensitive to the injustices you observe in society that they can easily make you ill. Because your environment has such a powerful effect, you should try to make some contribution to relieve your anxieties about allowing these negative conditions to exist. You are sympathetic toward the oppressed, understanding of the emotionally disturbed, and forgiving to those who seem guiltless in their transgressions against society. You easily become distraught over conditions you are powerless to do anything about, and your feelings of guilt and failure can make you withdraw into a world that is safe from responsibility. You should associate with people who have their feet on the ground to compensate for your aimless wandering temperament. There is a great need for your sympathetic understanding, and you do not have the right to turn down anyone who extends a hand for help.

Saturn in the Eighth House Saturn was found in the eighth house at the time of birth. Because of the restraining influence of this planet, matters concerning legacies, inheritance, and the financial dealings of your partner or associates could be severely limited and may be frustrated by what seems to be harsh fate. Psychologically you are rather serious in connection with sexual affairs. You approach sex with caution, rationality and planning. Excess reason and thought in this direction may create some frustration in sexual matters.

Moon in the Ninth House The Moon was found in the ninth house at the time of birth. Your higher mind has the potential to expertly reflect the teachings of elevated knowledge that you may receive throughout your life. You will have an ability to quickly adjust to varying conditions. You are endowed with a clever and resourceful imagination, and a mind which is receptive to ideals, higher thoughts, and perhaps even metaphysical matters. Throughout life you are going to solve many critical situations by your ingenious and highly inventive mind which has an abundance of new and humane plans and ideas.

Venus in the Tenth House Venus was found in the tenth house at the time of birth. You will appear as a person who seeks harmony, inclined as you are to observe the aesthetic value of all things in life, to engage in artistic activities and to possess all that is lovely and beautiful. You have sufficient potential to achieve success in life, especially if your occupation is artistic or musical. Much of your success is a consequence of applied interest and hard work; you posses merit and ability, and your congenial, intelligent manner produces a very exalted image. In any case, there are very good possibilities for the acquisition of some social distinction, a good reputation and financial success at some period of your life.

Sun in the Twelfth House The Sun was in your twelfth house at the time of birth. This may indicate a life full of limitations, obstacles, and human opposition, but at the same time a lot of inner strength and energy. You are urged to pause and reflect upon your own accumulated history. Take some time for introspection. It may result in a purification process accompanied by some remorse of conscience. Internally, you are quite different from the way you present yourself externally. You possess a vast reservoir of energy that may be partially hidden even from your own awareness. Your internal disposition is strong, commanding, open, and of a rare generosity. More and more you should try to bring these characteristics into the open so that they can overcome some of the less desirable aspects of your personality.

Sun Conjunct Ascendant The Sun conjunct the Ascendant shows that you have a great desire for recognition and are creative in finding ways to gain attention. In general you are uncompromising. You have great faith in your ability to rise above any of life's negative circumstances. You know how to use your vast creative resources in a direct assault against any adversary, and you believe that eventually you will succeed. Most often you do, but when challenged by stiff competition you will resort to brute force to demonstrate that you do not give in without a fight. You know how to win friends and influence people, and you use this talent effectively. To be truly comfortable in your profession, you need to have a position of some authority over others.

Clairsentient... Empath

So, I am checkin' my email the other night and received an email from a psychic/clairvoyant that I had a free report from about a month ago. She gave me a sample report and of course sends me updates periodically hoping I will pay for a full report.

I noticed the word "clairvoyant" and decided to google it. I just wanted to learn more behind the meaning of it.

Clairvoyance and Clairaudience are readily understood and accepted terms of reference for the abilities to "See" and "Hear" in a metaphysical sense. The word "sentient" literally means "feeling" with dictionary reference stating(sen-tee-ent) adj. capable of feeling - sentience.

Clairsentience, is the ability to feel the emotions of other people. While it's not to be confused with empathy but to some degree both Empathic and Clairsentient Beings have the ability to become a vehicle or dumping ground for unwanted emotions belonging to other people.

An intuitive empath, is a special individual who has advanced powers of emotional, mental, spiritual and overall energetic sensitivity. Empaths are highly intuitive which means they tend to do things by feeling, by sensing, by reacting to queues, and by following "hunches, gut-feelings," etc. AKA, "highly sensitive and/or emotional" beings.

I have always had people in my life that have felt comfortable enough to tell me their problems, issues and/or hopes and dreams. I've always enjoyed sharing inspiration and positive words. Just thinking that is normal... doesn't everyone share with everyone?

Since I was little, I have been able to "feel" other people.... their true feelings show right through their surface. If someone is telling a lie... I know, I feel it. If someone is hurting, or their spirit is "broken," I can feel their pain. When someone is angry, I all of the sudden feel angry.... the same with sadness, hopelessness, and every emotion. This is where the disconnect has come into play and has been useful.

I can even feel the future at times. I have felt when someone is going to get pregnant, or break up with their partner.... even without "knowing" or being told they were having issues.

At times, I can also feel other's physical pain. If I am around someone who is ill, feeling lethargic, having a cramp, or pain in an organ, etc..... I can feel it! I feel the same pain in my body. I believe it also happens when I'm not around someone.... I can be far away and feel their pain. I thought I was crazy. It happened once, I didn't think much of it. It continues to happen... I've just been ignoring it, not knowing how to process it.

Sometimes I just "know." It's hard for me to express that to others without sounding egotistical. And sometimes I am wrong.... if my emotions run high and I'm not paying attention, I can be wrong.

As a child, I learned to disconnect. I can completely disconnect from someone and/or a situation. I can walk away from a friend, boyfriend, family member, stranger, any situation and not take any negative emotions or feelings with me, not all of the time, but most of the time. I can really just let it go and disconnect. I have used that throughout my life as a defense mechanism. I thought it was related to moving all of the time and not getting attached to anyone because I knew they wouldn't be around long.... maybe that was part of it? I just thought it was some emotional thing I was supposed to work on and "fix."

I remember watching my mother purposely hit her head against a brick wall in agony over her boyfriend. I must have been around 10. My mother was/is a pharmaceutical addict. As I walked onto the porch, I remember saying, "Mama, I am going to take JoJo for a walk." JoJo was my Shihtzu... my dog. I didn't look at her for more than a second as I spoke and walked past. I left and spent the day walking my dog around. I don't remember any negative emotions... just that I had to leave her to herself.

Now, I don't remember the majority of my childhood... just random moments. I don't remember anything before the age of 7. I thought that was normal, too. I didn't think anyone really remembered much of their childhood.... until I was older and found many friends and family members that could remember most of their childhood. Wow, what is wrong with me? Why can I not remember?

After reading more on the Clairsentient and Empath Being, I realize "disconnecting" was a super healthy thing for me to do. That way I wasn't bearing the burdens of those around me... that was my self preservation technique.

I didn't disconnect ALL the time. I don't know what made me do that sometimes and not others?

I remember being at work when Tiana was one.... 10 years ago. I had heard through co-workers about a little girl (nobody I knew) who had meningitis and was in intensive care. I think she was 7. I immediately started crying and couldn't sleep for days. I would just cry uncontrollably and could feel this girl's pain. I remember talking to a mentor of mine and trying to understand why I was so upset. About three days later, I was calm again. I don't know the outcome of this little girl's illness, but there was a feeling of peace within me.

It's nice to be comforted by the thought of these feelings and emotions being a gift. I want to learn more and find out how to channel this into a healthy, beneficial mode of healing.... for myself and others.

Kundalini, spiritual awakening..... this is all tied in together. Loving the feeling of "waking" up. Feeling so blessed.

Day 8 and New Direction

Today is day 8 of the Master Cleanse. I was chatting with a girlfriend of mine and we decided I am going to start weening from my fast. I am going to start a parasite cleanse and colon cleanse as I ween off my fast.

It has been an amazing experience so far and I'm looking forward to the parasite and colon cleansing. The hardest part has been cooking for and keeping up with the kiddos!

My two girls (11 and 9) have the chicken pox, my three-year-old is always a bundle of energy, of course there's the baby and just the normal mama "stuff" is calling me to have more energy and get back to business as usual... not that I took time off, but it took more out of me for sure.

I do plan on doing another fast in about six months or so. I really see and feel the benefits!

Fasting - Day 6

Wow... this fast is becoming a beautiful life transition for me. It has shown me yet more life lessons to grow and learn from.
Yesterday was my "hardest" day so far. Day 5.... I was a little irritable and very tempted to eat! I made some yummy buffalo tacos for the kids last night... fresh lettuce, tomato, guac, salsa, black beans, refried beans, brown rice, tortillas.... mmmmm.
My Jayden was telling me I should eat... "You "deserve" to eat, Mama." She is concerned for me, sweet girl. I reinforced how great this fast is for me and what it does for me. It is put into incredible words by Yuri...

We detoxify and cleanse for health,
vitality, and rejuvenation.

We cleanse our body to clear symptoms,
treat disease, and prevent future problems.

A cleansing program is an ideal way to
help you re-evaluate your life, make changes,
or clear abuses and addictions.

We also detoxify and cleanse to rest and heal
our overloaded digestive organs. This is often
an overlooked, yet very important, area
considering optimal health truly begins
with the health of our digestive system.

Aside from the internal health benefits,
detoxification can also be a great catalyst
for external change. For instance, it can
provide a great opportunity to reflect and
re-evaluate what' is most important to you.
It can serve to help you cleanse your house,
your work, your relationships. After a cleanse,
you will even feel more organized, more creative,
more motivated, more productive, more relaxed,
and more mentally focused and clear.

So, if you want more energy, greater vitality,
more youthful and radiant skin, and greater
health for life, then cleansing should be a
regular (annual or semi-annual) part of your life.

Re-evaluating and making changes for sure!
I have been used to saying, "I want "that" so I am going to have it... and have it now. Why should I have to wait for it?"

This fast is opening my eyes to having to "wait." I'm not sure I can explain it...

Here are some things that have come up so far...
I have thought more about money and the way it relates to this fast. I can now see it's okay not to have something off the shelf, or a latte, right now. I can now see more clearly the idea behind saving and investing and working my way up to being "free" to spend.... and not just on me. I want to be wealthy so I can help others, share and have more of an impact on this world around me.
Somehow, cooking has become more of a love of mine than a chore. Seeing how I am choosing not to eat, not sure how this came about! Not being with my ex these last two years has helped tremendously, also. I remember feeling like I had to cook to make his day. But, there has been something with this fast that is making me see and feel cooking in a whole new light. Now I'm loving it! Every ingredient, every topping and spice, mmmmmm.... just loving it.
Also waiting for my love... just waiting. I was getting a bit impatient and cravings have been out of control! Now feeling more like I can do it... I can wait. Not having expectations, not knowing the outcome, but waiting for whatever it is. It's very similar to this fast. No matter the outcome, it's going to be worthwhile and amazing! Maybe we need this space to grow a little more before coming together. I for sure do!

Thanks, again, Universe.... I am so grateful.
Day 6 and still counting... ;)

Fasting - Day 3

So far, so good! I've definitely been more irritable, mostly with the kiddos... trying to keep that under control. All-in-all, I'm doing great. The salt water is the worst part! The best part is the feeling of empowerment. I am tempted by the beautiful breakfast/lunches/dinners I cook for the kids, but there is no way I'm even taking one bite! Not even a bite to taste as I cook... hope it's good! No complaints so far. ;)
One day at a time! I've been told and have read that I will have more strength and be less irritable after day 4... looking forward to that.

I Started My Fast!

Yesterday was the first day of my fifteen days of fasting. I am doing the Master Cleanse.... also known as the Lemonade Diet.

Salt water flush in the morning.... yuck. Yuck going down and yuck about 30 minutes later. ;)

Fresh lemons, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper in water.... all day long.

At night, some bentonite clay and psyllium husk to grab all the toxins and send them on their way.

It's interesting because of the mama factor. I'm still cooking for the kiddos all day. Last night, I made a bird, some yams and broccoli. I think yams are one of my favorite foods! It smelled and looked amazing... that's okay. I can hang. I just keep repeating to myself that I will be eating all of this yummy food again in a short while.

I broke the habit of finishing up their plates. It took me a bit, but I got it down. Now we just have some great leftovers for them.

This morning for the kiddos... french toast and maple chicken sausage. For me, salt water....

I'm so looking forward to this experience. It feels good everytime I make the choice to pass on all of the food around me. It is some kind of high.... not sure I can fully explain it yet.

The kids are in on it and have had interesting responses. Yesterday, Tiana (11) said she was thinking about me all day... she also said she was proud of me. When they are eating, the younger ones will offer me food and my older ones remind them that I am fasting. This is looking like a great experience for the whole crew.