Think I found my new love..... Vedic Astrology. I had no idea there was a different "type" of astrology. Apparently, there is Western Astrology and Vedic Astrology. I found out I have quite a bit of Scorpio in me! And here I thought I was a Sagittarius. ;) My moon is apparently in Leo, my sun in Scorpio, and my ascendant is Scorpio? Not sure how all of that fits, but learning! So far, everything I have read seems right on. I love learning different ways of "figuring" out how people work. Kind of a hobby.... maybe it'll turn into something greater?
So funny how we are all so different. I try to show my kiddos that we all function differently and to accept it. My perception of something might be opposite of yours. That doesn't make me right and you wrong, it's just the way we are built. My response time might just be a little slower than yours because my mind is wandering, but I'm okay with me... and I'm okay that your response time is a lot quicker. ;) The same goes for the mass population. We all have to come together and appreciate eachother for who we are and what we each have to offer. Thank goodness we're not all the same.... how boring.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
i wanna work....
would love to work! i would love to work, have my kiddos in a safe, fun environment while I'm working, and bring in some $$$. i can only enjoy myself (at a job, at the gym,etc.) if i know my kiddos are safe and happy. i'm ready to find that balance, so i can have some "me" time, feel productive, bring in some money, socialize outside of the fam, etc.
so bring it, universe! i'm ready. maybe doing something that helps others or makes the world a better place.
since my ex isn't currently (and hasn't been with the exception of this summer) taking the kiddos, i need "X" amount of time during the week to be me. it's always helpful to get that break. i was going to the gym more often, but now, not so much. the kids and i aren't really enjoying the manager of the daycare at the gym. i can't get my ballin' on if they aren't enjoying themselves... ;)
alright... it's on it's way. i'm patient.... i'll keep my eyes open for the opportunities the universe provides. hmmmm... i might need help with that!
dear universe/god,
please help me see (and take) the opportunities to achieve this balance of me time, $$$, helping others, working, being productive, having purpose (outside of my mama purpose), while my kiddos are enjoying themselves in a fun and safe environment where they will also grow, learn, love, and succeed.
thank you, thank you, thank you!
so bring it, universe! i'm ready. maybe doing something that helps others or makes the world a better place.
since my ex isn't currently (and hasn't been with the exception of this summer) taking the kiddos, i need "X" amount of time during the week to be me. it's always helpful to get that break. i was going to the gym more often, but now, not so much. the kids and i aren't really enjoying the manager of the daycare at the gym. i can't get my ballin' on if they aren't enjoying themselves... ;)
alright... it's on it's way. i'm patient.... i'll keep my eyes open for the opportunities the universe provides. hmmmm... i might need help with that!
dear universe/god,
please help me see (and take) the opportunities to achieve this balance of me time, $$$, helping others, working, being productive, having purpose (outside of my mama purpose), while my kiddos are enjoying themselves in a fun and safe environment where they will also grow, learn, love, and succeed.
thank you, thank you, thank you!
Monday, September 13, 2010
The single mama dating scene....
If there was ever a time or chance for my ex and I to work things out and get back together, it would've been this summer. We spent a LOT of time together just due to the financial challenges we endured. We talked about getting back together and still have a love for one another.... but it's just not the same. I care for him and only wish him the best in life, but I don't have the same feelings for him that we shared when we were married. Something shifted inside of me back around the time of Keenan's (my babies') birth. This summer was great closure for me. Just being near him and next to him this summer helped me to realize things have really changed for good. My feelings have changed for him. I'm not sure I can even put it into words for you... it's just not there for me anymore.
That being said, I also have continues to visit the "Obama" man every now and again. I only see him about every other week or every three weeks. He is definitely not the "one," but nice to be around and I appreciate his work.
I know my man is on his way.... I'm patient. I'm young and not going to settle for just anyone. I have time and when my man comes.... it's on. ;)
That being said, I also have continues to visit the "Obama" man every now and again. I only see him about every other week or every three weeks. He is definitely not the "one," but nice to be around and I appreciate his work.
I know my man is on his way.... I'm patient. I'm young and not going to settle for just anyone. I have time and when my man comes.... it's on. ;)
The summer played out....
So, it all came together.... summer. Summer started with us being "homeless." It's an interesting word, with different opinions depending on who you ask. I knew it would work out and just had to believe that all was well. We just went from a house to the forest. This camping trip lasted two weeks before I got a house sitting opportunity. May was a "good" time to be homeless due to the weather. Camping is familiar to the older kiddos, so they were comfortable with it. It was a lot harder for me camping this time due to my youngest being only one and not so into change, and being a single mama. I have to give major props to my ex, though, for stepping up and helping us. He helped us move... I was super sick (fluish) so he pretty much moved us out. He helped with funds as much as he could. He also helped parent... tag team - nice!
After two weeks, the kids and I moved into a house in Erie. The house had been sitting empty with the exception of the two dogs that were left alone most of the time. So, my job was to take care of the dogs and the house and I could live there for free. It was perfect. A two bedroom house with a big back yard, a toilet, a shower, a washer/dryer (yay!), running water... it's the little things! I am so grateful. We lived there from the first of June until late August.
When the house sitting was over, there was a one week lapse until I moved into another mama's beautiful mountain home back in the canyon by the girls school. We camped it again for that week and found an amazing spot that we so enjoyed. The timing of everything couldn't have been better if it was planned! The summer worked out beautifully and the fall has started off with a feeling of exhaling.
My business of delivery didn't "take off," but it got us by. My ex worked a lumber job up in the mountains and gave us half of his check every week.... something like $60 a week on average. I appreciate him for that.
One gentleman that I had met on craigslist, earlier in the year, to buy his computer (which I didn't end up buying), helped us so much this summer. He helped me put stickers on my van for my business. He had me doing some pick up and delivery for his business and would pay for gas in my van and food for the family in return. Our friendship ended on a not so nice note, but I am still grateful for everything he has done for me and the kiddos.
Random strangers offered me money along my journey this summer.... that was amazing! Wow, sweet guardian angels that didn't even know me! One gentleman at a small town, kinda "junky" dealership talked with me and the kiddos for about an hour. He gave them ice cream bars and then handed one of my boys $20 so they could go eat burgers.
One sweet, Jersey lady at a small town storage place ended up giving us $120 for burgers, gas and to keep my phone on. I stopped to look at an RV she had up for sale and our friendship lasted about a week. She heard me on the phone talking with my cell phone provider about disconnecting my phone. She met my kiddos and fell in love. She and I had a great connection and it just kept going for that week. I moved shortly after we started our short friendship. I appreciate both of those sweet people. Thanks for helping out my crew. xoxo
Two of my girlfriends really helped me out this summer, too. Both I have known forever! I love you girlies! Thanks for all you do on a regular basis and thanks sooo much for the help you gave me this summer.... financially, emotionally, with food, etc!
Can't forget my dad! I am so glad he's mine! He has been there for me unconditionally. He helps financially and is a great listener. I can't even put into words how much he means to me and how important he is to me. I love you, papa! Thank you, thank you, thank you. XO
So grateful for every day and everything that comes my way. I love the people I meet on my journey, I enjoy my kiddos and watching them on their journeys.... my littlest guy was such an inspiration this summer. He just waddles around with no cares or concerns. He just knows it's all going to be okay. He is happy to be wherever he is whenever he is there. I love that and strive to have that same sense of being in the now and enjoying it.... wherever that is.
xoxo
After two weeks, the kids and I moved into a house in Erie. The house had been sitting empty with the exception of the two dogs that were left alone most of the time. So, my job was to take care of the dogs and the house and I could live there for free. It was perfect. A two bedroom house with a big back yard, a toilet, a shower, a washer/dryer (yay!), running water... it's the little things! I am so grateful. We lived there from the first of June until late August.
When the house sitting was over, there was a one week lapse until I moved into another mama's beautiful mountain home back in the canyon by the girls school. We camped it again for that week and found an amazing spot that we so enjoyed. The timing of everything couldn't have been better if it was planned! The summer worked out beautifully and the fall has started off with a feeling of exhaling.
My business of delivery didn't "take off," but it got us by. My ex worked a lumber job up in the mountains and gave us half of his check every week.... something like $60 a week on average. I appreciate him for that.
One gentleman that I had met on craigslist, earlier in the year, to buy his computer (which I didn't end up buying), helped us so much this summer. He helped me put stickers on my van for my business. He had me doing some pick up and delivery for his business and would pay for gas in my van and food for the family in return. Our friendship ended on a not so nice note, but I am still grateful for everything he has done for me and the kiddos.
Random strangers offered me money along my journey this summer.... that was amazing! Wow, sweet guardian angels that didn't even know me! One gentleman at a small town, kinda "junky" dealership talked with me and the kiddos for about an hour. He gave them ice cream bars and then handed one of my boys $20 so they could go eat burgers.
One sweet, Jersey lady at a small town storage place ended up giving us $120 for burgers, gas and to keep my phone on. I stopped to look at an RV she had up for sale and our friendship lasted about a week. She heard me on the phone talking with my cell phone provider about disconnecting my phone. She met my kiddos and fell in love. She and I had a great connection and it just kept going for that week. I moved shortly after we started our short friendship. I appreciate both of those sweet people. Thanks for helping out my crew. xoxo
Two of my girlfriends really helped me out this summer, too. Both I have known forever! I love you girlies! Thanks for all you do on a regular basis and thanks sooo much for the help you gave me this summer.... financially, emotionally, with food, etc!
Can't forget my dad! I am so glad he's mine! He has been there for me unconditionally. He helps financially and is a great listener. I can't even put into words how much he means to me and how important he is to me. I love you, papa! Thank you, thank you, thank you. XO
So grateful for every day and everything that comes my way. I love the people I meet on my journey, I enjoy my kiddos and watching them on their journeys.... my littlest guy was such an inspiration this summer. He just waddles around with no cares or concerns. He just knows it's all going to be okay. He is happy to be wherever he is whenever he is there. I love that and strive to have that same sense of being in the now and enjoying it.... wherever that is.
xoxo
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