Keepin' on...

The "Obama" man... beautiful soul, but not for me. It took me a minute, but now I see clearly. This man is an amazing one, who will change the world in his own space with his heart-felt passion... but not with me next to him. Thanks to the Universe for showing me that. I can always rely on the Universe to have my back... gotta remember that as I journey on!
So, what's next... let me just talk it out...
Moving within the next two weeks. Not sure where the kiddos and I are headed, but I'm sure it's gonna play out beautifully. My ex lost his J.O.B. -which just means no more child support cushion. I'm not currently working, but I hope to be slammin' with my new biz soon! My dad is going to retire next week and is not in the financial space to help me any longer. In one HUGE way, I am soooo glad. He needs to rest his weary bank account and mind. I don't want him to have to support me and my crew. That's a big responsibility he didn't sign up for! My oldest girl and I can't seem to communicate right now... no worries, though. That, too, will come around. I'm for sure. Just missin' her...
Still have the most incredible, loving, kiddos who are healthy and free spirited! Still counting my endless blessings!
I was told to keep breathin' and believin'... that's what I do best, so here I go!
xoxo

Love... feelings... hmmmm...

Working out some feelings and emotions. Crazy how grounded I've felt compared to recent uncertainty. I am growing for sure... learning and expanding all over the place. If this is love and this is how I feel with it... forget it! I'd rather feel grounded and secure than insecure and open to being hurt. I have wanted love in my life and the security of being with one man... a man that is my best friend, soul mate and protector. But am I ready for that? Am I up for it? I have found him and I'm chasing him off. I am for sure pushing him away and can't help it. Seems he has some walls that I would only be able to penetrate slowly.... and I don't seem to have the patience for that. I'm an all or none... get in or out... right now type of girl. I've fought that and tried to slow down and do more in the "middle." I'm just not sure how that is working out for me. Actually, it's driving me nuts. I know what I want and I am ready now. But, he's not. I need to step back and let him play that out. In the end, whatever happens, happens and I'll be okay with it... I've gotta be. :)